by Goda | Apr 21, 2020 | Hawaii
April 21, 2020: A lot apparently happened in the last few days. I came over to Isaiah’s a few days ago and saw Athena was there, and this overwhelming feeling of jealousy came over me… I automatically assumed Isaiah had a thing with her. I felt like crying and so I...
by Goda | Apr 19, 2020 | Hawaii
April 19, 2020: Trust that those you seek to spend your time with will show up. Trust that you are worthy of the most innocent, childlike friendships that you can imagine. No expectations, just enjoying one another’s space. I am so grateful for barefoot adventures...
by Goda | Apr 18, 2020 | Hawaii
April 18, 2020: So Isaiah and I have been just magical. He came over shortly after I came home and gave me a massage on the couch in Rainbow dorm then came over again after I told him I’d rather do my own thing for the night. We were all watching Sunny. I was in my...
by Goda | Apr 16, 2020 | Hawaii
April 16, 2020: I feel like crying. I have been celibate for about seven months, and I broke my celibacy with Isaiah. I don’t even know how to spell his name. I have been experiencing a lot of shyness during my celibacy. It feels as though I’ve been experiencing...
by Goda | Apr 13, 2020 | Hawaii
April 13, 2020: Experiencing celibacy has come to show me how absolutely meaningless sex really is, nor is it something that needs to be glorified. It is just neutral. I believe it is possible to reverse the effects I made from my thinking. I have become motivated to...
by Goda | Apr 11, 2020 | Hawaii
April 11, 2020: An enormous amount of relief arises within me when I recognize I am not capable of doing anything. Consciousness has the space to flow through me without resistance. I hear myself tell people, “I haven’t drank any alcohol in almost two years,” and,...
