April 13, 2020:
Experiencing celibacy has come to show me how absolutely meaningless sex really is, nor is it something that needs to be glorified. It is just neutral. I believe it is possible to reverse the effects I made from my thinking. I have become motivated to strive for relationships I had when I was younger… when I would have sleepovers with boys and I wouldn’t even get in my perception ‘this is a boy.’ It was simply someone who was my friend who I had a fun time with. Pure innocence.
I feel like since I’ve moved back to Cinderland, I’ve been coming across men who want to do more than cuddle. I remind myself that that is okay, however it’s just not what I feel drawn to. I ask Spirit for guidance and trust that those who feel the same as me will come at the perfect time. Deep in my heart, I know that we are all worthy of having whole and loving relationships with the apparent opposite sex without feeling any obligation to be physical. It is possible to all live like brothers and sisters… cuddles and kisses, all expressed through innocence. Living in this community has given me endless opportunities for forgiveness and trust… and for that I am so grateful.
Experiencing celibacy has come to show me how absolutely meaningless sex really is, nor is it something that needs to be glorified. It is just neutral. I believe it is possible to reverse the effects I made from my thinking. I have become motivated to strive for relationships I had when I was younger… when I would have sleepovers with boys and I wouldn’t even get in my perception ‘this is a boy.’ It was simply someone who was my friend who I had a fun time with. Pure innocence.
I feel like since I’ve moved back to Cinderland, I’ve been coming across men who want to do more than cuddle. I remind myself that that is okay, however it’s just not what I feel drawn to. I ask Spirit for guidance and trust that those who feel the same as me will come at the perfect time. Deep in my heart, I know that we are all worthy of having whole and loving relationships with the apparent opposite sex without feeling any obligation to be physical. It is possible to all live like brothers and sisters… cuddles and kisses, all expressed through innocence. Living in this community has given me endless opportunities for forgiveness and trust… and for that I am so grateful.
